Oh wow, I just realized something. In Sweet Baby when they’re in the Oval, Fitz says you left me. Olivia says because you said you wanted to dedicate yourself to your marriage. That line always struck me as bizarre because I’m like there is no way Fitz said that her. But he did. Just not in the way she used it in that moment. Yes, I’m slow like that.
Yeah, I noticed but Olivia totally twisted his words. He didn’t just say he wanted to work on his marriage(in my mind this isn’t him saying he wanted to work on his marriage age all) but he also said in the same breath that he loved her in 3 different ways known to the English speaking tongue. She acted like she totally didn’t hear, “I love you. I’m in love with you. You’re the love of my life." Fitz didn’t say ‘I want to work on my marriage’. What he said was, “You think that I don’t want to dedicate myself to my marriage? You don’t think I want to be honorable, to be the man that you voted for? I love you. I’m in love with you. You’re the love of my life.”
To me & my best understanding, what he is saying is that he doesn’t want to be a man that cheats. If he could, he would try to dedicate himself to his marriage to be the honorable(in the sense of not cheating) man but newsflash, it doesn’t work like that because ”I love you. I’m in love with you. You’re the love of my life." He is telling her that he can’t just go dedicate himself to his marriage because "My every feeling is controlled by the look on your face. I can’t breathe without you. I can’t sleep without you. I wait for you. I watch for you. I exist for you.”
He also said, “If I could escape all of this and run away with you…" This is more of a declaration of the all-encompassing love that he feels for her than the words of someone who regrets the relationship & wants to fix things with his wife. She totally twisted his words because she felt guilty(& I am guessing somewhat ashamed) that Mellie knew about their affair. Olivia probably felt like a cheap prop since Mellie knew & the best way to justify leaving the man that she loved was to use his own words against him.